Time with my son...PRICELESS :-)

Sternum etc seem to be hurting (oncology appointment manana), making something to eat & gotta take the kitten to see if she has a chip :-) Who wants a kitten? Whatcha duin?

last night, while I was talking w my mom, I looked at the birthday card Joshua drew for me, in 2008 & I pulled out some color pencils and made one for him :-) Gotta run now, but plan on making a short video, showing that and reading his favorite poem - Sunny Sunbeam, by Marry Dibble :-) (Wish me luck, por favor , it will be my first video :-) Angles b w u, on this glorious day!

Remembering when my friend Marjay & I were at the crematorium, 3 days after Joshua passed on, & seeing his body, before it was cremated. When I stroked his hair it was such a shock because his face was cold. It reminds me that our bodies (these garments we wear while here) r important to take care of, respect & listen too, without becoming obsessed with making them look like what we r made to believe others will find appealing. & to what expense - financially, psychologically & the physical damage that is done, over time?
Angels b w u :-)

I love my neighbors, our cul-de-sac & listening to the neighborhood kids play & work things out for themselves :-)

Just heard one of the kids say "I don't want to play this anymore!" Q for many of us: When did we forget we could do that? In many areas in life we seem to get so wrapped up in things that do not serve us for our higher good, because we feel we r supposed to keep doing whatever it is, for whatever reason. Let's choose" not to play" whatever is hurtful, or just doest"t feel right anymore :-)

Yesterday, I went in for bones scan, & was grateful to find they were using a scanner that could do a CT Scan (looked like a modified CT Scan machine), Bone Scan & PET Scan which took only a fraction of the time it usually takes & with one machine, instead of 3. They also injected a stronger Isotope (to make me glow for the machines) & I only had to wait one hour after the injection, instead of 3 & it was supposed to leave the body quicker. The people who work there really took care of me - you could tell they like their jobs and genuinely care about the people they inject and scan :-)

When it was time for the scanning, I had to lay on my back, place my head in a special device to keep it steady & put my hands at my sides & they strapped me in, because the table area lifted to go into the scanner & if the straps wouldn't have been around me, my arms would have been hanging down & meeting the machine, in a not to pleasant or safe way, because that part of the table wasn't there anymore.

As I started to enter, the opening seems smaller than a CT scanner & at first, I couldn't tell if it was going to be like a cave & my whole body would be in a small confined space, or as turned out, it seemed just a little longer thank a CT Scanner, so I only had a short distance to make it through each time. When I first when in it made a loud noise that reminded of a sound I heard on the movie Contact (with Jodie Foster), so to calm down I had my eyes closed & thought about being out in space, playing amongst the stars. When I was there in my mind, I thought of my son, Joshua, being there too (for anyone new to my blog, Joshua is my 16 year old son, who passed on September 18, 2008, after 3 years with bone cancer & a recurrence) So I was able to escape the machine & any fears I had about it , & play with my son around the stars :-)

As I was going back and forth - when my head was on the other side of the machine I saw that some times it the letters "CT" were highlighted & other times the letters PET were, so I knew that I was getting more that just a bone scan. Very cool :-)

I got to see the radiologist report, today (still haven't seen the doctor's notes) Some of the radiologist findings included that the seeming cancer in the sternum seems to be a bit bigger than in September & what seems to be cancer in the T-9 vertebrae, in September, seems now go from the T9 to the T12 vertebrae. There was something about my knees, but nothing cancerous there.

I will write more tomorrow, but wanted to get this out :-) I plan on writing about chronic pain and similar situations, where we really have to remember to communicate to others about what we need or how we feel & not just expect them to know about what's going on.

Angels be with you :-)

God Bless You for a Miracle Day!!!

Teresa Marie Katherine Rosa Angelica Rose :-)
Follow Your Bliss!!!
EXPECT A MIRACLE!
www.IAmAtPeaceWithDestiny.com

Yesterday, I went in for bones scan, & was grateful to find they were using a scanner that could do a CT Scan (looked like a modified CT Scan machine), Bone Scan & PET Scan which took only a fraction of the time it usually takes & with one machine, instead of 3. They also injected a stronger Isotope (to make me glow for the machines) & I only had to wait one hour after the injection, instead of 3 & it was supposed to leave the body quicker. The people who work there really took care of me - you could tell they like their jobs and genuinely care about the people they inject and scan :-)

When it was time for the scanning, I had to lay on my back, place my head in a special device to keep it steady & put my hands at my sides & they strapped me in, because the table area lifted to go into the scanner & if the straps wouldn't have been around me, my arms would have been hanging down & meeting the machine, in a not to pleasant or safe way, because that part of the table wasn't there anymore.

As I started to enter, the opening seems smaller than a CT scanner & at first, I couldn't tell if it was going to be like a cave & my whole body would be in a small confined space, or as turned out, it seemed just a little longer thank a CT Scanner, so I only had a short distance to make it through each time. When I first when in it made a loud noise that reminded of a sound I heard on the movie Contact (with Jodie Foster), so to calm down I had my eyes closed & thought about being out in space, playing amongst the stars. When I was there in my mind, I thought of my son, Joshua, being there too (for anyone new to my blog, Joshua is my 16 year old son, who passed on September 18, 2008, after 3 years with bone cancer & a recurrence) So I was able to escape the machine & any fears I had about it , & play with my son around the stars :-)

As I was going back and forth - when my head was on the other side of the machine I saw that some times it the letters "CT" were highlighted & other times the letters PET were, so I knew that I was getting more that just a bone scan. Very cool :-)

I got to see the radiologist report, today (still haven't seen the doctor's notes) Some of the radiologist findings included that the seeming cancer in the sternum seems to be a bit bigger than in September & what seems to be cancer in the T-9 vertebrae, in September, seems now go from the T9 to the T12 vertebrae. There was something about my knees, but nothing cancerous there.

I will write more tomorrow, but wanted to get this out :-) I plan on writing about chronic pain and similar situations, where we really have to remember to communicate to others about what we need or how we feel & not just expect them to know about what's going on.

Angels be with you :-)

God Bless You for a Miracle Day!!!

Teresa Marie Katherine Rosa Angelica Rose :-)
Follow Your Bliss!!!
EXPECT A MIRACLE!
www.IAmAtPeaceWithDestiny.com

Sweet dreams y'all! :-) I still have a while before I get to sleep, but it sounds like a great idea :-)

Very busy day, just got home. God bless my neighbor, Phil. He always mows our front lawn & he's outback helping Christopher with the back yard. I am so grateful! Also grateful for my wonderful son and all our friends! Feel hungry & tired, but have a bit more to do. Hope ur having a great evening :-)

bone scan, for me, manana - injection @ 11:45 & scan 2-3 hours later for 20-45 minutes..thinking about the Gilds' fund-raiser this Saturday & that Sunday (April 25th) Joshua would have been 18...So grateful for the 16 years I had w him & all the time I have with Christopher - I am so grateful :-)

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I love PrePaid Legal & RingCentral.com :-) Hope ur enjoying ur day!
Angels be with you :-)
God Bless You for a Miracle Day!!!

taking a break form taxes, warming up soup & remembering when the kids were young & I'd make a big pot of soup. After a few days of it, they'd be ready for something else, so I'd put toast at the bottom of the soup bowl & add soup & called it "Soup Toast" & they'd love it a couple more days :-)

enjoying the warmth and love from the sun & cheering the dandelions on as they wake up, while drinking my Natural Clam & taking supplements - Yay! -Beautiful day! How r u?

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Angels b w u :-)

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I am so happy to tell you about something very special that I am involved in – Gilda’s Gang, a training program for the Country Music 1/2 Marathon on April 24, 2010. While I am no longer able to participate as a walker in the event – I will be among the many "Gilda Groupies" cheering for The Gang on race day! I have also pledged to raise $750 for Gilda’s Club Nashville, where people living with cancer receive free social and emotional support
I ask that you pledge whatever amount you can to help me reach my goal. The money raised will support the wonderful program activities at Gilda’s Club; and remember - your gift is tax deductible. Thanks so much for your support!

Gilda’s Club Nashville's purpose is to offer to their members lectures, workshops, classes, support groups and social activities in a non-residential, homelike setting. Free of charge to everyone, Gilda’s Club Nashville provides a gathering place where people with cancer and their families and friends can join with others to actively involve themselves in building social and emotional support as a supplement to regular medical care.

To support go to:
www.FirstGiving.com/TeresaRose
or give me a call 615-720-2646

Thank you!!!
Angels be with you :-)
God Bless You for a Miracle Day!!!

Teresa Marie Katherine Rosa Angelica Rose :-)
Follow Your Bliss!!!
EXPECT A MIRACLE!
www.IAmAtPeaceWithDestiny.com

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looking at pics of the kids on www.IAmAtPeaceWithDestiny.com